DAMN…WHERE DO I BEGIN…WELL FIRST OFF, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE OF YOU FOR THE SUPPORT YOUVE GIVEN ME THESE PAST COUPLE YEARS!! FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART..I TRULY MEAN IT!! YOUVE HELPED ME RISE LIKE THE STAR I KNOW I AM…BUT THIS STAR WOULDNT SHINE WITHOUT YALL!!

BUT AS IVE LOOKED BACK ON THESE LAST YEARS, I REALLY DONT KNOW IF IM HAPPY WITH MYSELF!! I LOVE THE MUSIC I MAKE AND THE MUSIC I INTERACT WITH…BUT THESE LAST FEW MONTHS IVE BEEN IN THE STUDIO ALOT…AND LATELY AFTER IVE FINISHED A VERSE OR A HOOK, ILL LISTEN BACK TO IT AND THINK TO MYSELF…”IM JUST NOT FEELING THIS!” IVE FORGOTTEN COMPLETELY WHY I DO MUSIC…LATELY ALL THATS COME OUT OF ME IS “FUCK THIS..FUCK THAT…GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS, MONEY, SHIT CLOTHES!!”…AND WHILE, I MUST ADMIT, THESE TOPICS ARE QUITE NECESSARY TO SING ABOUT SOMETIMES…I JUST DONT FEEL IT ANYMORE!!

AGAIN..THESE PAST FEW MONTHS, NOT A DAY HAS GONE BY WHERE I HAVENT SAID TO MYSELF “I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS RIGHT!”..WHICH HAS LED ME TO THE CHOICE TO SWITCH UP MY STYLE. WHICH IS HUUGGEEEE!! NOW I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS POSSIBLE RIGHT AWAY..NOR AM I SURE I WILL HAVE EVERYONES SUPPORT ON THIS (ITS NOT EASY BEING GREEN!!)…BUT ALL I KNOW IS I DONT WANNA BE CLASSIFIED AS A “MONEY, CARS, CLOTHES, HOES” RAPPER-SINGER ANYMORE! (NOT THAT THERES ANYTHING WRONG WITH THAT) I JUST WANNA HIT THE DEEPER SIDE..THE SOPHISTICATED SIDE..ITS JUST WHAT I WANT TO DO!! AND IF I DONT FEEL MYSELF, HOW CAN ANYONE ELSE?

WHERE DID THIS COME FROM YOU MAY ASK? WELL…IM PRETTY SURE ITS KNOWN KANYE WEST IS MY ABSOLUTE IDOL, AND PROLLY HAS THE BIGGEST INFLUENCE ON ME (UNDERSTOOD!)…AND YES ITS TRUE I LISTEN TO EVERYTHING FROM LIL WAYNE, DRAKE, T-PAIN, EMINEM, SHWAYZE, BOB MARLEY, DAMIAN MARLEY, STEPHEN MARLEY, MATISYAHU, JIMI HENDRIX, THE KILLERS, BLINK-182, RACAL FLATTS AND EVEN BANDS LIKE BRING ME THE HORIZON AND SILVERSTEIN (LOL! BET YOU DIDN KNOW THAT!) HOWEVER, I CANT HONESTLY SAY HASNT A DAY GONE BY IN THIS PAST YEAR THAT I HAVENT LISTENED TO K’NAAN’S ALBUM “TROUBADOUR” AT LEAST ONCE A DAY!! IT HAS SERIOUSLY CHANGED MY LIFE..(ITS EVEN CONVINCED ME I NEED TO CUT DOWN MY CUSSING!!)..BUT IT ALSO GOT ME THINKING..WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING!?  ON ONE SIDE YOUVE GOT KANYE..ON THE OTHER YOUVE GOT BOB MARLEY AND MATISYAHU…AND IN THE MIDDLE…THERES K’NAAN!! HMMM!

SO IVE SAT DOWN…AND PUT SERIOUS TIME AND THOUGHT INTO THIS ISSUE..AND RIGHT NOW, I BELIEVE ITS THE RIGHT THING TO DO!! SO WHAT IM GONNA DO IS, RELEASE “LIL RASTA WHO?”…AND KEEP WORKING ON MUSIC…BUT PROGRESSIVELY SEPARATE MYSELF FROM WHAT IM DOING..I WANT THIS TO HAPPEN!!

TO THE FANS…DONT WORRY…YOURE NOT LOSING ME IN ANYWAY…ILL STILL BE THE CREATIVE, LYRICAL ARTIST I AM NOW…ITLL JUST BE DIRECTED ANOTHER WAY..AND LIKE I SAID, THIS PROLLY WONT HAPPEN RIGHT AWAY..AND YOUR SUPPORT IS MUCH APPRECIATED..BUT THIS IS JUST A HEADS UP!!! I LOVE YALL…SHOUT OUT TO WESTON BUCK, LEVI MADDOX, MY NOVIA, MANUEL & CHUY, BOOQ, GABI AND EVERYONE ELSE WHOS BEEN BY MY SIDE SO FAR!! I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU…

-LIL RASTA BOI

I THINK IT MAY BE KNOWN BY NOW THAT I DO NOT DRINK OR SMOKE…NEVER HAVE AND NEVER WILL. HOWEVER, DUE TO MY RASTA AFFILIATION, I GET ASKED IF IM “HIGH” ON NEARLY A DAILY BASIS. (NOT ALL RASTAS SMOKE BTW!) I GUESS THE WAY I LOOK CONTRIBUTES TO THIS BELIEF AS WELL..LONG HAIR, SCRUFFY BEARD, TIRED LOOK IN EYES…I USED TO GET OFFENDED WHEN PEOPLE WOULD ASK ME IF IM HIGH 24/7…HOWEVER, ITS TIME TO TELL THE TRUTH. I AM HIGH ALL THE TIME. AND ITS A HIGH MOST OF YOU WILL NEVER EVER GET THE CHANCE TO FEEL. ITS CALLED A NATURAL HIGH. IM SOOOO HIGH ON LIFE ITS RIDICULOUS. NO NEED FOR ANY OF THE FALSE HIGHS LIKE ALCOHOL, WEED OR DRUGS…I WAS WATCHING A K’NAAN INTERVIEW WHERE HE SAID SOMETHING LIKE “I BELIEVE IF DO SOMETHING LIKE DRINK OR SMOKE, ILL NEVER BE ABLE TO RETURN TO THIS NATURAL HIGH. ITS NOT WORTH IT. I DONT WANNA RISK IT”…THOSE WORDS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. I DONT DRINK OR SMOKE SIMPLY FOR THE FACT THAT IF I WERE TO DRINK OR SMOKE, I COULD NEVER RETURN TO THIS AMAZING HIGH I HAVE NOW…AND ITS NOT WORTH RISKING..YES I HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS…WHO DOESNT? ALOT OF PEOPLE CLAIM THEY DRINK OR GET HIGH TO “ESCAPE THEIR PROBLEMS”..BUT AS SOON AS YOU GET SOBER, THOSE PROBLEMS ARE STILL GONNA BE THERE..AND RIGHT THERE I BELIEVE IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME…I FACE MY PROBLEMS HEAD ON..AND I CAN SAY THAT I AM STRONGER FOR IT…IM HIGHER THAN ANY POTHEAD/PARTIER/DRINKER…WANNA CHALLENGE ME ON IT? GO AHEAD. JUST KNOW YOULL NEVER FEEL THE FEELING I HAVE NOW. WITH THE LOVE…

TASTE OF RENO TOMORROW NITE YALL!!! FIRST TIME IVE BEEN SO EXCITED FOR A SHOW IN A WHILE!!!

OKAY…IM ONLY 17 YEARS OLD. AND WE ALL KNOW THAT ISNT VERY OLD. HOWEVER…I CAN SAY THAT I HAVE LIVED MY ENTIRE LIFE IN THE PRESENCE OF, IN MY OPINION, THE GREATEST COMEDIAN/TALK SHOW HOST EVER. EVER SINCE I WAS A LITTLE, I WOULD WAIT UP ALL NIGHT UNTIL MY DAD GOT HOME FROM WORK, AND WE WOULD SIT IN THE LIVING ROOM AND WATCH CONAN O’BRIEN TOGETHER. EVERYTHING FROM TRIUMPH THE INSULT COMIC DOG TO THE MASTURBATING BEAR (LOL). AND I REMEMBER EVERY MOMENT. THOSE DAYS WERE THE TYPE OF DAYS ILL NEVER EVER FORGET. THAT BEING SAID, I COULD NOT BE ANY SADDER WITH THE FACT THAT HE IS LEAVING. I FEEL LIKE HIM LEAVING MARKS THE END OF MY CHILDHOOD AND ITS MEMORIES…I KNOW HE’LL PROLLY NEVER READ THIS BLOG, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO THANK CONAN FOR BEING THERE EVERY SINGLE NIGHT OF MY LIFE AND CREATING SOME OF THE FONDEST MEMORIES ILL EVER HAVE. THANK YOU CONAN O’BRIEN!!! DON’T KNOW HOW ILL LAUGH WITHOUT YOU, :(

FIRST POST ON THE NEW BLOG..HOPEFULLY THIS ONE WILL STICK LOL!